Well, I did it! I made it through the first day! And honestly, it couldn't have been better.
Did I cry? Yes. Multiple times. Did Alice make life hard for Giselle (her nanny)? Yes. Multiple times. But when I got home at 4, Alice was sound asleep in her bedroom and Naomi was playing on the floor with Giselle, repeating words in Spanish and giggling. It was so calm, in fact, that I decided to take advantage of the babysitting and I hit the gym! Alice woke up minutes after I got out of the shower back at home, and after kissing daddy and spending some time with him, the two of us were off for our evening stroll. An hour later, we came home, cuddled, she ate and then fell asleep in my arms. Heavenly.
Work itself was great, too. I almost forgot how amazing my colleagues are. Rhonda & Kristin had a framed picture of Alice for me, and I started crying the second I saw it. Everyone was patient with me. They let me gush on and on about my beautiful little one. They ignored the tears and red eyes. They shared their offices for me to pump. They cared about and for me and for Alice.
And, to top it off, Giselle sent me frequent visuals of my sweet Alice!
"But when she stepped off the train in New York, her plain little face looked beautiful for a moment, as if the future were opening before her and its glow were already upon her forehead, as if she were eager and proud and ready to meet it..."