Today Alice and I went to a beach in Staten Island! Henry generously left us his car, so we have been taking advantage of it, driving out of the city as much as possible. I can't believe this beautiful beach is only 1 hour from our house - what a treat! Alice loved burying her feet in the sand, watching the water come in and out, and jumping over the water. She also loved the ice cream!
She didn't really like sharing it with me, though...
I am very emotional these days. Between the pregnancy and the job
transition, there seems to be a lot going on in my head. I am going to
miss my colleagues/friends so much, and leaving something you know for something you don't is just... horrifying. I've had so many horrible work experiences - terrible bosses, general meanness, and lots of whinny folks. But my tenure at the Health Department has been marked by the complete opposite - nothing but love, support, encouragement and faith. I am just trying to remind myself that I am no longer a 23-year old youngster who doesn't know how to respond to difficult situations. And that I have heard lovely things about my new office. I'm excited for the new challenge, and a little daunted by it as well...
This is the summer of change. On Wednesday, I resigned from my job at the Health Department. After 5 years working with the same amazing and inspiring team, I've accepted a new position in education.
I've been very conflicted about this decision. I interviewed for the job back in January, and as the slow, S L O W wheels of City beuracracy turned, I debated the move endlessly. Oh, and I also got pregnant.
As I understand it, my new job will require more hours, more stress, and more analytic skills than I currently possess. But it also comes with a slightly higher profile, more pay, and a new and engaging environment. I'm moving from an office that understands what it means to be a mother of young children into one that is occupied by younger, single women. Is this a good move? Who knows! But I do think it is time for a professional change.
Additional news from last week: our nanny left for (indefinite) maternity leave. We are facing a month without steady child care, but actually I'm excited. My mom is coming up for a bunch of days, Michael and I are both taking some time off, and we've hired a babysitting service for a few days as well. We're looking forward to a month of having Alice at home, not having to commute the 20 blocks south to our friends' house, and just enjoying the long summer days.
Please pray for our household. These changes are good, ultimately, but they are stressful, and not without worry. Thank you.
"But when she stepped off the train in New York, her plain little face looked beautiful for a moment, as if the future were opening before her and its glow were already upon her forehead, as if she were eager and proud and ready to meet it..."