Thursday, July 28, 2011
It's been far too long since I wrote to tell you how things are going. In a word, they are: GREAT. You are such a treasure.
At 15 months and some change, you can say Daddy, shoe, doggie, cheese and down. You can kind of say hi, bye bye and up. Generally, you aren't speaking a whole lot of words, but you LOVE to talk! You love holding up books and "reading" whatever is on the page --- minutes and minutes of a foreign language your Daddy and I don't quite understand. We're almost completely convinced that you will skip solitary words and just immediately go to full sentences.
You have such a lovely disposition! Sweet, smiley and social, you are. You give lovely hugs, and sweet kisses - but only if we've had enough alone time for you to be happy with us. You love baths and pools. You are thrilled to see a doggie, but afraid to pet one. You sleep with a froggie, a blankie and a binkie. Your favorite breakfast is scrambled eggs, and you love to eat blueberries more than anything else in this world. If I gave you yogurt and fruit at every meal, you would be one happy camper.
Another sweet character trait: you're mildly prissy! You really don't like to get your hands dirty. If your hands have anything on them, you're quick to rub them together to get everything off. It's endearing and mildly concerning. Your daddy and I are trying to figure out how to make sure you don't mind mess.
We love you, sweet Alice! You are the bestest thing ever!I love you,
Monday, July 25, 2011
To listen to said cranky baby moan in frustration as I made dinner, and as we attempted to eat it.
To spend all your daily allotted time with baby trying to get "other things done," like family fed and apartment straightened.
To cry from your own frustration over the way we must spend our time, and how scarce quality time with baby and husband is.
To just miss your family so much it hurts.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Saturday, July 23, 2011
This is an absolute miracle!
Alice has been around for well over a year, and I feel like we're only now learning how to reclaim some time for ourselves. It's such a challenge - finding time to squeeze in the gym, or drinks with friends or some alone time - when we are trying to prioritize family dinners and quality time with Alice and (of course) work.
But we're starting to figure it out!! Dropping my Saturday morning job has been a big help, and realizing that one night away a week is okay has been good for me mentally.
Oh balance. How elusive you are!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Jake was an old-school New Yorker. The kind that sits out on the building stoop all summer long, trying to beat the summer heat. The kind that gets to know his neighbors, even if the neighbors might not be that interested in getting to know him. He was an older man who lived with his partner and spoke often, lovingly and with pride about his daughter. He grew up in a different New York, when our neighborhood was more dangerous, poorer, perhaps closer knit.
Jake was always sweet to Alice. He complimented her smiles, and told us that she should be modeling or in movies, as his daughter had been. He was always happy to hear how we were fairing, and certainly felt at ease with telling us about his trials and tribulations. He spoke openly about his battle with HIV and cancer, and reminded me of a different era in the City.
I'm surprised by how sad the news of Jake's death has made me. Sometimes, when he was sitting on the stoop of our building, I would walk around the block one more time to avoid engaging in conversation. Michael & I both discussed how uncomfortable he could make us. But he was always good at heart, well meaning , and trying to connect to the people who lived right next door. He was good to Alice, and therefore good to us.
While Jake died, and his partner lost his love, I cooked dinner. Our family ate together. We complained about our days and fought off annoyances and went about daily life. We lived while he died. His passing is just another reminder of how connected we all are, how grateful we should be to have good, kind people around us. How New York can bring you closer to strangers than most anywhere else.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
- Enjoyed a brief period of about 5 minutes when Alice smiled big, happy smiles to be up and awake and with Michael & I.
- Experienced multiple meltdowns anytime I put Alice down, the biggest when I went to get a shower.
- Had 2 potential nannies call to cancel their interviews today.
- While making her breakfast, Alice grabbed for the eggs, tossing 3 down on the ground in the kitchen. I spent the next few minutes cleaning while Alice wailed from her highchair.
- In no time flat, Alice ate all 3 scrambled eggs.
- And, with egg all over her face, hands and highchair, Alice insisted on holding a blankie.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
For a while now, I've been waking up at 6, giving me about 2 hours and change before I need to leave for work. This week, in that time, I've managed to fix lunches, enjoy some quiet time drinking my first cup of tea and reading the paper, get Alice fed and dressed and do some prep work for our family dinners. It has been absolutely wonderful!
Now, if only I could figure out how to add a workout to that routine! Some pictures from this morning: